Another Year

where did the time go? seriously...i havn't posted since September...so many things in my life has changed. a lot of new stuff. a lot of not new stuff.

Senior year has had it's ups and downs. in general, it hasn't been too hard. December was just stressful. and i think January will be too with all the IB stuff. SENIOR PAPER IS DONE! thats the best part. I got accepted to the U of O as well. and lately i've been workin on tons of scholarships. not exactly fun.

Last night was New years eve, and i have to say that it was the weirdest new years ever...it didnt feel like new years. good night non the less.

im scared for college. honestly i dont know what im gunna do. living on my own is gunna be scary. trying to fend for myself...great. college is so expensive. what am i gunna study?? what do i want for a career?? ugh...

im just excited for 2nd semester. no more math and spanish. two very hard classes that i wont miss. just one more month...

im finally starting to save up some money, but i have to start making car payments. :( i hate money. honestly the worl would be so much better with out it.

i feel a little down right now. kinda bored. i didnt have much to do today. just some homework. i spent most my break slaving away at sears. i got good hours, and im hoping for a good pay check.

Christmas was wonderful as usual. i always love the holidays. Christmas eve is my favorite. spending it with the extended fam exchanging gifts :) i just can;t believe another Christmas has passed me by. i feel like life is set on fast mode right now. everything is flying by. im not ready!

if i could describe 2009...i'd say it was stressful..haha. but hey, alot of wonderful things happened as well. im very thankful for the people in my life. like kyle for example, almost two years and i'd say were pretty strong :) whats gunna happen when we go off to college tho? i have no idea, ad yes it scares me. more than anything.

resolution for 2010? be nicer,, and more approachable. im surprised at the number of people who think im mean before they even talk to me.

ill try to get back on here more often, even in the hustle n bustle of my life. its hectic, so idk whatll happen.

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

it has begun

school :(

and the first weekend? spent slaving away at work. and already have so much homework. didn't want it to start, but cant say that i want it to end.

they aren't lying

you dont know what you got, until its gone.

its a cliche...you hear it over and over. and it starts going in one ear and out the other... until it becomes relavent. and now it is. found out a little less than a week ago that ariel is moving to texas this week...again. heart broken? ya, extremely. cant believe we're going through this again. i've had my share of tears the past few days...im not sure what im gunna do with out her. i can't imagine being without her again...makes me so sad :( no graduating together, no college together. and if i ever do get to see her again, it'll prolly be after college. thats in like 5 yrs...i just don't know what im gunna do. i guess taking one day at a time is all i can do.

i'll miss you. best friends forever.

if one thing in life is true

its that time will keep going.

and it sure as hell doesnt take its time.

summer is...hate to say it...mostly over. we still have a few weeks, but im sure itll be gone before i know it. im finally able to save my money. so glad my dentist stuff is payed off. i got my biggest pay check today, $445 :) ive been working alooot its not even funny.

my bday was suuuper fun. but sad bcuz johan left :( we went to breakfast, then to the airport, then to Dorena. i love that place :) when we got back into town we got dinner and then i went out with my family. it was a good day!

i decided this summer that im not gunna go for the full IB, since im just planning on going to UofO. so, im gunnadrop bio, and just take the IB test for spanish and call it good. i just would really like my senior year to be fun and not stressful. i just dont know what i want for college yet. and frankly i dont really wanna think about it right now. senior paper? havnt even looked at it the past few months...i should get into that :/

anyways...i think im pretty content right now. summer consists of work, community service, and some free time. im super glad that i got a good head start on my community service. so i wasn't totaly hopeless this summer, i was a little productive :)

hot hot heat

DAMN. who knew eugene could get this hot. its global warming im telln ya...

the past weeks have gone fast. i dont know where to start.

today was fun. elaina ang n me went to the river then the pool. water is the cure for heat. but the river was freezing..

for my bday kyle bot me a new phone :) i'll be 17 in two days! yay!!

Taking a deep breath

i dont like being at home. i cant stand that everyone is so busy. i dont like being alone. i wish i had someone to be with when all the rest of you cant be with me. work has goten in the way for all of us. we're never alllll together. just a few of us. i hate working around my schedule, and yours. i feel very sad right now. today is my day off and im not even doing anything. sweet.

Miss you

i think you've only been gone for a week. and i dont really usually see you more than once a week. but not seeing you at all makes me sad. i want to text u! n talk to you! i miss ur cute little face :p

cant wait to see you, your in my thoughts and heart! ily :]