Curiosity

Oh it gets the best of us...

the last few days have been good. the day before yesterday me jimmy and nick hung out. well, jimmy went to film for a while actualy. so he dropped me and nick off at the pool. now im kind of awkwardly tan. lol. kyle stopped by to say hi, then me and nick went to vrc and i bot some new shirts. totally exciting. im actually convinced that i've been losing my money...cuz ive been spending 90 a week. its ridiculous. that night i went to eat with kyle and then we sat in his car for like an hour. he left yesterday to Portland :( he eventually left so i went back in and me and nick talked...we were both upset, drama drama drama :p we made milkshakes and then angela left. that night lasted forever. we danced and sang and made vids and all that fun stuff till 4 a.m. i couldnt sleep really, cuz i was terrified that we were all gunna die. lol. i guess i fell asleep sometime after 4 and then got up at 8. it sucked...

after work i went back to jimmy's bros and we took malibu for a walk...we got back and then just layed in bed for like 4 hrs. nick had to go so we dropped him off and me n jim went to his house then ate. nick ended up not going to his bro's party thingy so we picked him up again. we got back to the house and watched t.v. we all wanted to watch a movie so we put in crash. id been dying to see it. it was sooo good, but it made me really mad lol. i decided to stay the night again hoping to actually get sleep tho...we went to bed around 1 and with my luck i like slept on top of my phone and didnt herar my alarm. it was 940 and im like fuckkkk. i called my dad and he was pissed but i wasnt too late. just no more staying the night on work nights. oh well..

im not sure what im doing today yet...im kinda being lazy right now making food and washing my clothes. but it feels good to be doing nothing. i got my new swimsuit in btw. its cute, but a little big...i can still wear it tho. :]

im wayy tired.

oh, its almost my birthday ;)

Really Trying

A couple days ago me n kyle went up to spyglass hill with a blanket and layed up there :) it was really pretty and relaxing. i loved it! Paco came by for a lil too :p after we met up with ang jim n elaina at the pool. it was cold cuz it was like 8 haha.

the next day. total breakdown :/but things are better.

yesterday was amaziiing :]] i met up with angela nick and jimmy and then we went to vri pool. so sweet! we stayed there till about 5. it felt really good and i got tanner woo hoo! after, we went back to angelas and she fell asleep. jim nick n me tried to make 'music' :pp didnt really work tho...angela woke up and we went to tbell. we went back and grabbed our bikes. we rode around Autzen and the trails behind it. Randomly we went to a bmx track or something?? idk it was scary lol. at 9 we rode back, feeling totaly gross.....so we got home and watched p.s. i love you. it was okay...nothing great.

today im hangn with jim n avi :]]

So far

The past week has been really good. I spent the three days that kyle was gone with Nick. First with him and Michael, then him and the gang that night.

The next day (the fourth) we went to angelas, ate, then went swimming. ariel jim nick me and ang. it was really fun...but my swimsuit broke :/ but no worries, i ordered a new one yesterday!
that night we bought food to make at angelas house. it was okay, my mashed potatoes were good tho :] after stuffing ourselves we sat, then went outside to do our fireworks :pp we wanted to go do them somewhere else so we got in the car and drove to spyglass! well...kinda. we layed up on the hill and watched the fireworks from alton baker. it was a really cool view so we are def. going up there again :]] it got done pretty fast so we wanted to find a new place. we went to gilham and they decided to sit on the roof. me and ariel were scared to get up, but we eventually did :pp it was really cool sitting up there. around 11 we came down and went to some church parking lot n did our fireworks. they were fun :p we ate cupcakes... then left. we got back to angelas at like 12 and tried to finish them but some guy came out of his house saying he was trying to sleep >:| so we went inside and they started a movie. me and nick made cookies and right after they were done me and him went to bed. kinda. :p none of us slept well. angela was pissed me and nick were talking. nick was hot. jimmy was cold. ariel was making frog noises. ...i have drooling problems........

;)

i got up ealry the next morning and went home. i met up with nick at his house and we watched Zoolander. it was ghetto. we sat at his house all day..took a nap..killed my phone..ya know. at like 9 i called ariel and then she picked me up. we went to her house and ate :] i was starving. after we played guitar hero and i officially suck! :p we decided to watch a 'mad money' and it was really good, until i fell asleep at the end! how lame. the next morning we ate a yummy breakfast and then we watched mean girls....like my 8th time haha. at 2 i went home to get ready and then kyle got back from the coast and we hung out :]

today i hung out with kyle again, but he had to go to campaigners so now im home.

and done.
ill write later :D

Who we used to be

I miss the days when all we had was eachother. when no one came between us. we are as far away as i knew we'd never be. all of us seem to be going different ways. its a scary reality.

i just need some time with you all. just us. like it used to be. i wish we could all be the same.



i had a good day, but a feeling of unwantedness caused me to take a little over an hour to want to think about things. so i walked home from Nicks. i thought a lot. but im still stuck. all i know is that my feet are def. not gunna feel so good the rest of the night, and i have to walk to work tomorrow. life sucks.



Quote of the Day
"God will always provide"
thanks Nick :)