Homecoming

= perfect

:)

I'm affraid of her

I see her and i think to myself...why does she have to be SO pretty? Every single guy's 'dream girl'. The girl with the perfect body, pretty face, 'innocence'. simply the most gorgeous girl ive ever seen...I CANT STAND IT.

everything about her is just...perfect...and im not usually a person with jealousy issues... but you have to understand that when it comes to her, i know she is in every way better than me.

and it makes me so hurt inside when i see you laughing, and smiling with her. finding you associating with her makes my stomache tight, my heart drop, and my confidence level simmer to a halt. and then there are the things i 'hear'

and i know you dont know i know, but i do and that's the worst thing. AND THAT YOU LIED. that gets to me. why couldnt u tell me? were you affraid of the truth? i dont know anymore, but if i lose you to her it wont be a surprise.

i want to know that im the only one...that you dont and will never ever again have those feelings for her again. cuz there cannot be a you and me if she is standing in the middle of us. im sick of being taunted by other people.

i want the truth, but im too affraid of it.

so here i am.

but please dont confront me.

Woot

i got my dress and shirt in the mail yesterday :D
they are both soooooooo cute
im extremely happy

yay :)

Yay!

I got paid on friday!! :D 255 babayy. the only downfall is that i already spend like half of it. or more. lol. hc is coming up! i bot a dress online...i hope its cute and fits. im kinda nervous. rawr. but im totaly excited to go! like i just know it will be great.

this wk is so weird. 3 half days. woahh. its been very unstressful n nice.

on sunday i woke up at like 7 to go to a meeting at work. it was the worst meeting ever. they all made me feel so retarded. so i stepped up my game monday night at work n finaly got a credit app and a pa :]] yaya im proud of myself. i hope i stay positive, cuz i dont want them to hate me. i hope i get used to everything also, it still feels a little new. oh and my paycheck wont be as good next week cuz im workin half of what i did.

oh and did i mention working tools is the worst thing ever?
ya it sucks

anyways, today was good. hung out wif kyle :] love you dearrr
almost 7 months!
hehe

okay im done!

Excitment

i feel so excited
im not sure why or what for
but i just feel like good things are ahead of me.

i think im on the right track with school.
im getting things done
and trying to understand everything.

me and kyle are perfect
its been six months
and we are still going strong
i love you baby :]

my confidence levels seem to be rising.
this year is going good
possibly, junior year may be my favorite one in high school

What the fuck

are you serious?
sometimes i wonder what the hell you think you're doing
do u not understand the concept of appreciation?
you'll regret that someday, i promise
i've learned my lessons the hard way.

all i can say is that don't come at me with your empty apologies.
they don't mean much after a while.