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Thursday, November 27, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Breathe
IN
When feelings of emptiness and sadness become usual feelings. When feelings of heart ache and tears come at you more than they unusually do. When feelings of confusion and longing wont stop.
Lately, i dont know what to do. because the thought of losing you has crossed my mind more than it should. my heart feels empty like your not here with me. like you've let me go already. as if our time has arrived. like i mean less to you than i used to. i thought all my tears had been cried...that i was stronger than to cry. but truth is it hurts so bad to imagine myself without you. suddenly you dont need me. and suddenly i dont feel like we complete eachother. you comeplete me..but i dont complete you. i think of all my other broken relationships and think that could never be you and me. but i probably never saw me and those other guys being apart. and it puts reality in front of me... that i've been hurt before, and that things like that can happen to me. that my heart will and can be broken at any chance. I don't want to see you a month from now and pretend like there was nothing there between us. because i've never felt love like i have with you. i've never felt so real with someone. if there is one person i've grown with its been you. i;ve learned so much from being with you. living life with you. i want to go back to summer when i felt we were the strongest. when we were best friends and i felt i was put first before anything. that top of the world feeling i felt everyday. i hate to think im drifting..and i hate to think after me someone new will come. and as i swollow my words the tears in my eyes come. losing you will be it for me.
AND OUT
When feelings of emptiness and sadness become usual feelings. When feelings of heart ache and tears come at you more than they unusually do. When feelings of confusion and longing wont stop.
Lately, i dont know what to do. because the thought of losing you has crossed my mind more than it should. my heart feels empty like your not here with me. like you've let me go already. as if our time has arrived. like i mean less to you than i used to. i thought all my tears had been cried...that i was stronger than to cry. but truth is it hurts so bad to imagine myself without you. suddenly you dont need me. and suddenly i dont feel like we complete eachother. you comeplete me..but i dont complete you. i think of all my other broken relationships and think that could never be you and me. but i probably never saw me and those other guys being apart. and it puts reality in front of me... that i've been hurt before, and that things like that can happen to me. that my heart will and can be broken at any chance. I don't want to see you a month from now and pretend like there was nothing there between us. because i've never felt love like i have with you. i've never felt so real with someone. if there is one person i've grown with its been you. i;ve learned so much from being with you. living life with you. i want to go back to summer when i felt we were the strongest. when we were best friends and i felt i was put first before anything. that top of the world feeling i felt everyday. i hate to think im drifting..and i hate to think after me someone new will come. and as i swollow my words the tears in my eyes come. losing you will be it for me.
AND OUT
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Update
I havn't posted in a long time. I've been coming to blogspot but just never clicking the "new blog" button. maybe i've just been lazy.
Tonight was really relaxing, but its been going by slow. I did't have alot of homework so i've just been chillen. Listening to "the greatest" on repeat. along with "you dont know me".
The new term started last week. It kind of spontanious when i signed up for drawing and painting 2. keaton had it so i thot i'd join i guess. i like it so far. it goes by super fast and im not just wasting an hour of my life sitting like i usualy did during my free second. Plus its nice to have a few friends to talk to. I'm not very talented at painting and stuff but who cares really. least im getn some art credits.
I'm really tired today. We had 0 period and a poetry test thingy. i think i did good, but im not sure cuz Land grades pretty hard. least i think so cuz im usually good at writing papers but my last one i got a low b. on the other hand i got 50/50 on my econ paper. im happy about it but i could have done better. i just am really mad with word limits.
Monday our video for lit is due. my group did all the filming tuesday after school and it only took little over an hour. i think it turned out good, but i havnt seen it yet. i prolly look like a freak in it. oh well. i hope we get a good grade.
the last two weeks at work havnt been good. i've been negative in apps and therefore havnt been gettings lots of hours. but this past week was a good one and so im positive 2. which is awesome becuase im never been over my goal, and plus im gettin extra money. next week i work 18 hours and im totaly happy. minus how half those hours are in tools. rawr.
so i calculated today (out of my total bordom) that i've made very close to 2000 since summer started and i have only saved about 150. like what the heck did i do with all of it? beats me...i really gotta stop sepnding so much so i can buy that dan car. oh, and gas decreasing daily. after school it was $1.99 at a.m p.m. insanity i know.
but anyways i get paid tonight, prolly 200. or somewhere around there. i love when i get paid :)
come to think of it i havnt had much hw this week. monday night i worked and went to taco bell with Kevin. fun stuff :p after that i went home and studied a little. tuesday i did my film and went home around 7 and did math i think. yesterday had history and read for econ, today i did math and studied for econ. tomorrow is friday :) i thot this week would be hectic but it was actually really nice. and i've been understanding the math so thats a plus. i usualy dont do the hw at home but i have been
well, im pretty sure i should atleast look over my math now and study for the quiz tomorrow.
bye :)
Tonight was really relaxing, but its been going by slow. I did't have alot of homework so i've just been chillen. Listening to "the greatest" on repeat. along with "you dont know me".
The new term started last week. It kind of spontanious when i signed up for drawing and painting 2. keaton had it so i thot i'd join i guess. i like it so far. it goes by super fast and im not just wasting an hour of my life sitting like i usualy did during my free second. Plus its nice to have a few friends to talk to. I'm not very talented at painting and stuff but who cares really. least im getn some art credits.
I'm really tired today. We had 0 period and a poetry test thingy. i think i did good, but im not sure cuz Land grades pretty hard. least i think so cuz im usually good at writing papers but my last one i got a low b. on the other hand i got 50/50 on my econ paper. im happy about it but i could have done better. i just am really mad with word limits.
Monday our video for lit is due. my group did all the filming tuesday after school and it only took little over an hour. i think it turned out good, but i havnt seen it yet. i prolly look like a freak in it. oh well. i hope we get a good grade.
the last two weeks at work havnt been good. i've been negative in apps and therefore havnt been gettings lots of hours. but this past week was a good one and so im positive 2. which is awesome becuase im never been over my goal, and plus im gettin extra money. next week i work 18 hours and im totaly happy. minus how half those hours are in tools. rawr.
so i calculated today (out of my total bordom) that i've made very close to 2000 since summer started and i have only saved about 150. like what the heck did i do with all of it? beats me...i really gotta stop sepnding so much so i can buy that dan car. oh, and gas decreasing daily. after school it was $1.99 at a.m p.m. insanity i know.
but anyways i get paid tonight, prolly 200. or somewhere around there. i love when i get paid :)
come to think of it i havnt had much hw this week. monday night i worked and went to taco bell with Kevin. fun stuff :p after that i went home and studied a little. tuesday i did my film and went home around 7 and did math i think. yesterday had history and read for econ, today i did math and studied for econ. tomorrow is friday :) i thot this week would be hectic but it was actually really nice. and i've been understanding the math so thats a plus. i usualy dont do the hw at home but i have been
well, im pretty sure i should atleast look over my math now and study for the quiz tomorrow.
bye :)
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Election Day 08
McCain vs Obama?
haha bitches Obama killed the vote!
new prez
cant wait for some change :)
haha bitches Obama killed the vote!
new prez
cant wait for some change :)
Sunday, November 2, 2008
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