Break down

im extremely stressed out :( and i guess this is personal, not something i like talking about, and i dont do often..buts its genuinely making my heart heavy. do u want to know how much i envy almost everyone? or better yet..how much i envy other families? u know..the ones that are more well of than mine..i mean my whole life i've been 'middle class' but honestly..now..and probably for the last few years, it has been worse than that. financialy, my family is doing so bad. it made me so sad when my mom said she was thinking of filing bankruptcy in august, saying that was the only thing she could do...it kind of brought to my eyes the reality of all this. i knew she was having trouble with bills...way too much charges on her cards...but it has goten so bad that she needs to file bankruptcy? i know i shouldn't talk about it, cuz she told me not to...but its so stressful for me. it has even goten down to eat, or not? i literaly dont eat at home anymore..there actualy isn't food to eat. and that sounds so pathetic...but we simply cant 'afford' it. i wonder does anyone else know that feeling? i never used to worry about having food.. i shouldn't have to right? i seem to always be hungry...i ask my dad or mom to buy something..they tell me to buy it with my money cuz they don't have the money. and thats embarrasing. i dont get money from my parents like most kids...school fees, clothes, random stuff..everything..is paid from my pocket. which i don't mind really, but im just scared for my parents and my overall well being. i want to do the full IB and i believe it will make my future better, but $400 in the next few weeks? idk if ill get that in my pay check. i defenetly wont be getting any help from my parents..i'd love to know for one day how it feels to go to ur mom or dad, and say "hey, can i have ten bucks" and not feel the biggest form of guilt out there. i simply just dont do it. i wouldnt even think to do it, cuz i know they dont have ten dollars to just give me. something u can get with no hesitation..is something that i couldnt imagine asking for. and i dont think anyone will understand that. i guess i dont really want anyone to..nor do i even want people to know..but its actualy effecting me emotionaly.