April showers bring May flowers

Just one last term of school :) summer sounds so sweet right now. 

i feel like all the hard stuff has yet to come in may, all the IB tests :/

but class wise, i feel like all the hard stuff is over. i cant believe junior year is almost over. it went by fast.

i have one more apointment for the root canal, and thatll be done. but what scares me is if ill have to get anything else done...im broke..

i also dont have a prom dress...and i dont even know if im going. this blows...

besides all those materialistic things, ive got alot of other worries. like my feelings. ive been okay lately. not great, not terrible. but ive become this somewhat independent person..in a bad kind of way. i feel really neglected, and ignored, and overall...extremely lonely. and no one really cares...i don't have anyone to talk to..i dont have someone who understands...its really terrible feeling like you have no one. and the fact that i did have someone, and they've become a whole other person who is tied up in their own lives. i dont feel part of you anymore. i dont feel that connection. i dont think you even realize how much you and i have changed. you say you still love me, but i think its because thats all you know how to say, and thats all you know how to feel. but i wish you'd dig deeper, and tell me the truth...because it speaks through your actions. i dont believe that you feel the same about me anymore, and i just wish youd realize and accept it, so that i can too.i still love you whole heartedly, but it hurts when im not getting the same effort put back.