Enlightened

I feel so good..complete..happy. I don't think things could get any better. I started out this school year sad...wanting more...thinking i couldn't ever feel like things were okay again. that i was stuck. i guess it just took a couple things to happen, and for me to realize that life is so good right now. i couldn't ask for more.

i love these kind of mornings where i just sit here and it occurs to me that im lucky. im lucky to have these people in my life. to love and be loved. this kind of happiness is almost unexplainable.

this feeling...you know its real when you find yourself smiling to yourself. you know its real when you realize you don't need a boyfriend to be your pedestal anymore. you know its real when you feel like you are now on solid ground. you know its real when you come home you still feel happy. you know its real when its always on your mind. you know its real when he doesn't have to say it, and you don't either cuz you just know its there. it's something that's better left unsaid.

happiness found me. i didn't find it. it came when i finally decided to let go and let God decide what was next. thanks for showing me that i am stronger than i seem to be sometimes. thanks for helping me forget such heartache. you saved me from myself.

"These Are The Moments" -Edwin McCain
Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain.
Smiling just to see,
The smile upon your face.

And these are the moments,
I thank God that I'm alive.
And these are the moments,
I'll remember all my life.
I've found all I've Waited for,
And I could not ask for more.

Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need.
Everything you are,
Is everything to me.

And these are the moments,
I know heaven must exist.
And these are the moments,
I know all I need is this,
I have all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.

I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could ask for more than this time with you.
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I've had's come true.
Right here in this moment,
Is right where that I meant to be.
Ohh here with you, here with me.

I could not ask for more than the love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for.
And I could not ask for more.