People really irritate me. I completely despise people who just feel like being nice to your face, but a complete asshole when your not around. i mean seriously! there are a few people i actually really used to be fond of, but now they annoy the hell out of me. just grow up okay? no one likes the way you are. oh, and i'd like to add that even though you try to fit in, you lack any chance of actually doing it.
School sucks. Tonight the stress kicked in..i really didn't have THAT much homework..but i just couldn't get it done with out stopping every five seconds to think about how boring and pointless it was. i'd like to meet a teacher who actually had a little bit of sympathy for those who don't like to spend 4 hours on homework every night. i hope you realize that you only get to live once..what the hell are we doing spending it on this crap? sorry, i just really think we could be doing more enjoyable things..but i know "education is important and is good in the long run" blah blah blah. im tired of it.
I realized today that people disappoint me a lot. Weather its the guy i like, a family member, a friend, or just maybe someone i look up to. I mean really...i get my hopes up so much. i think people to be so much better than they actually are. i have this weird thing where i believe that certain people would never do things..especially to hurt me..but people always end up doing that. am i just a push over? probably. ughh some things id just like to change
LIKE the fact that i suck at talking. like not talking but my lack of confidence and well, spontaneousness? if i could have one quality, it would be to be outgoing. its really irritating to be shy and akward. my whole life I've just been that girl who doesn't talk...with the exception to the friends i some how made..don't know how i did that by the way..anyways, if anyone knows a good way to stop this stupid bad habit of mine (not speaking) tell me. I'd really like to see a change in the way i am around people. but if that can't happen than i just wish people would talk to me. god sometimes i feel so lame! hah
oh, and one more thing, i hope you know im patiently waiting for you. its hard, but im doing it. people think i'm wasting my time but i don't care because i'll do whatever it takes. these feelings have stuck with me for too long to give up. and even though im not good at this kind of thing, you're worth the trouble. you'd probably think i was crazy if you knew this was about you.
oh well :)
Anybody else ready for summer? :p
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