Going Nuts

it's coming back...seriously, i thought this was gone. why is it that just one thing can change my mind for the millionth time. im tired of it! i was ready to start over. forget everything. all this gets me is disappointment. so disappointing...i never had it, at least it never seemed i did...but it makes me want all of it more and more. i was hooked from the beginning...and you know it. i just want this to end. i can't keep going back and forth. this is too good, and i can tell you know what you're doing. my God, take this feeling away...i don't need this :(

i feel really useless right now. its probably from my extreme lack of sleep. staying up till 2 am and then getting up at 6 doesn't do you any good. and then having to go to school yet again with 4 classes. every class dragged on. i'v been tired all day. i've been pissy, and all i want is to lay down and sleep. but i want someone to lay with me and talk. lately i've felt an extreme need for a nice nap with someone. nothing weird..

now that im done complaining...after school me ariel angela jimmy and elaina went to Chuck E Cheese. i felt two, but it was a lot of fun :) i owned at the spiny wheel thingy..totaly won a bunch of ice creams and the bonus 100 tickets :D bahaha it was intense. i hope we do that again cuz it was much more fun than i had expected. i judge things to much..

i think im almost to the point where i can't function normal anymore.

damn those guilty pleasures. they screw us all over

thats all :)