Here's To My Day

Cool, you sucked.

I was okay last night, really i was fine. i had actually been looking forward to today the whole weekend. but for some reason i walked into school and ended up in by far one of the worst moods i had ever been in. i mean what the hell? there is nothing that sounded worse than being at school. i felt so overwhelmed like everything was falling apart and that i was falling behind in everything. the feeling is so indescribable...everything everyone said made me want to kick them..and im being totally honest. i was taking it out on everyone (sorry by the way) but to you who made me feel this...thanks alot...you piss me off. i hope one day you realize that the things you say affect people. weather you want them to hear it or not. i really can't believe you. i dont see you the same. i freaking wish i had never got involved with you. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. thats all i have to say.

on a happier note, i guess that horrible feeling i had in the morning kind of rubbed off through out the day but thinking about it is really irritating. but i have to say that a few people really made my day :) they probably don't know who they are but its nice to have those kind of random people to put a smile on your face. those kind of people get me through the day. ferr real

and i know i cant stop talking about this but Its funny how the moment you spoke to me, I fell. HARD. It just upsets me that you don't talk to me anymore. And I feel weird having feelings like these for someone I barley know. Seriously, you have this incredible charm that keeps me almost..addicted. You're so cute, and bubbly, and even though you don't come off as it, i can tell by the little time i have spent with you. I see a lot of potential in you. And even though we are two whole different people who like completely different things i'm positive we could become really close :) I wish we could hang out more..or even at all..but im always doing things with my friends and never get the courage to ask. you don't know how incredibly long these feelings have been with me. and though i couldn't officially call us friends, i'd really like you to know that i'm happy to have met you. but for tonight, i guess i'll stop here.

i hope this year gets better. its been so incredibly lame and sad and depressing. blahh.
I'd also like to point out that i no longer like men...im lesbian :)
hehe

oh and i have unlimited text now
sooo text me :D
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